Hello all!
I've been so absent I apologise. I'm currently studying a postgrad in I.T, working two jobs and juggling life whilst trying to find time to improve and work on my music.

But I'm excited, I purchased my first bass guitar! I'm so in love with it even though I've little knowledge of how to use it (Like all my other instruments).

It's so beautiful to hold and the quality of how it sounds on Ableton has left me feeling really exciting for some future Sunn O))), Godspeed and Russian Circles influenced work.

I'm still frantically trying to work on an album.

Bass Guitar

My latest track, Soms.

This piece is inspired by Yann Tiersen, Ludovico Einaudi and general soundtrack music. It was mainly written after lots of improvised playing on Ableton. I feel amazed sometimes what I come out with messing around. When I feel sad or alone, I tend to feel like I can have a conversation with music. I feel like the music communicates my feelings back to me, as if we're both conversing about whatever is upsetting me and I find it comforting in that moment. I guess that's how I lose hours to Ableton.

This track is trying to express thinking with worry. It's inspired by those moments you might be sat on a train/bus, looking out the window, watching the world pass you by whilst you contemplate something troubling you. In my case I spend a lot of time thinking about something I miss. Knowing at the time when I was the happiest I'd ever been I always had this uneasy feeling at the pit of my stomach that it was temporary. I guess though when you think about it, everything in life is temporary, even life itself. I guess it has become a security barrier for me now, to view everything as temporary, thus limiting the amount of dependency or want of closeness to anything.

I feel like I created a slightly unsettling thinking tone in this track, I hope you feel the same.

Hi all.

I recorded this improvised piano piece on the morning of the EU vote result, I hadn't gotten around to sharing it on my blog yet.

I, like many millions of people was deeply upset by the result. I spent a lot of the morning crying in shock. Not just for what I will most likely in terms of identity, freedom of movement etc but also for the lack of protection for those who need it. I feel saddened that so many Vote Leave campaigns were driven by fear and many (not all) voted leave out of fear of what the campaigns drill into you. There's not enough out there about the way in which many poor people are exploited, especially illegal immigrants. They're at risk of being sexually abused, working unpaid, I just get upset imagining.

On the morning of the result I felt a great sense of loss. It took me back to a feeling I had towards the end of last year/beginning of this year when I lost the most important thing in my life. It reminded me of how I feel like the upset and loss I feel from that even will affect me for the rest of my life, similarly to how the EU leave will affect my life.

I hope the emotion of loss comes across in this track. I may choose to include it in my album I am working on and perhaps change the title to "Vaarvel" on the album to apply to the broader feeling of loss. I just feel it's important to know when this piece was made and its initial reason for existence.

Sending love.

Hello all! Terribly sorry a lack of recent music releases and updates, I've been moving flats the past two months whilst working full time hours so have found most of my time being swallowed up.

I released a track on Soundcloud a few months ago titled 'Ontsnappen / Vinden' (Escape / Find). I took influence from Christian Loffler and Tim Hecker, trying to recreate a haunting atmosphere whilst also including my electric guitar in the hope of creating a more post-rock sound. The chords used in this piece are actually the same as in my previous post 'Working On A Sad Piano Piece' just with different effects and synths.

As I mentioned on my Soundcloud, I hope for this piece of music to become part of a bigger project. I am trying to work on my first album, which is a challenge when you work a lot and also get tempted to make different styles of music each time you open up Ableton.

I'm trying to create an album which communicates the themes of loss, loneliness and memories. I'm trying to use the same chords in each track I make so there is a recurring melody in each piece to place emphasis on circling emotions and inability to let go. I also want the chord progressions to be very pleasing to listen to, in the hope that anyone who listens begins to notice a trend in each piece and looks forward to the next track so they can hear a similar melody again. This for me would communicate memories and missing a person.

Anyway for anyone who missed it hear is Ontsnappen / Vinden. I'm pretty overwhelmed by the positive response it has received, so thank you!